In hard times

I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber…

Tamika and I are going through difficult times right now. There are those around us who seem to take the greatest pleasure in causing us to fail, and we see only obstacles at every turn.
We’re patiently waiting for Him to create an opening for us, but at times it’s hard.
I’m doing my best to work hard with Zerflin, but my meager cut doesn’t seem like much right now… It seems to make me more weary than it makes me money.

We need prayer. Prayer against discouragement, mostly. We know God has our backs, and He’s never let us down before.
But somehow, with our failing and faulty nerves, and the knowledge that we really don’t deserve any of this… we feel the enemy’s wrath blow and cringe before it in pain.

Through all these trials (few of which I can speak about here), God has brought the two of us together. Amidst my incessant working and Tamika cleaning and cooking for the two of us, God set aside some time for just the two of us. That alone made the entire month’s worth of grief worth all the frustration and heartache.

Thank you all for your constant support and love, we cherish you and keep you in our prayers.

19 Replies to “In hard times”

  1. Dear Ben and Tamika,

    We are sorry that you are going through tough times now: It seems from your post that you are seeing God’s perspective in the hard times, and we rejoice in that. We think about you and pray for you often.

    Who are your enemies, who want to see you fail? Keep looking to God as you have been. You will both be stronger for it.

    We love you, Mom and Dad J

  2. Thanks, Dad…

    We’re trying to keep focused on Him as much as we can. Tamika has been reading devotions on our way to work each morning (I’m not allowing her to drive :)) and we’ve been praying together as much as possible.

    We really miss you a lot, and your support of us means so much.

    I’ll try to call you tonight.
    Love you,
    ~Benjamin

  3. Things are going good with us 🙂
    Due date is officially November 17th, but we’re not going to find out if it’s a girl or a boy! We finally agreed to make it a surprise 🙂 But I’ve got my names picked out! Joshua Nicolas James if it’s a boy, Keana Haley Nicole for a girl. Tony has been doting over me and refuses to let me do housework anymore O.O

  4. So cool… 😀

    We were thinking of Joshua too. I like Keana! That’s very pretty. Where did you get ideas for the names? We’re still deciding about middle names, so if you have any suggestions, let me know!

    I know how Tony feels; I don’t let Tamika drive or carry things anymore (though sometimes she does it behind my back).

    1. Thanks, Vanessa!
      That’s what I’m trying to do… just stay focused on God… I know He’ll bring us through this, I just have to keep trusting him.

      Miss you a lot,
      ~Benjamin

  5. Joshua is the name of a very close firned of Tony’s from years ago. Nicolas is Tony’s son that was killed in 2001 by a drunk driver, and James is Tony’s middle name 🙂

    Keana is Irish for beautiful, and we both have a lot of Irish heritage. Haley I just like and Nicole is a feminine for Nicolas 🙂

    I found girls names way way harder, but I just wanted something nice but unique. My best advice — check out every baby name book your library has!

  6. Hey Ben!!! Don’t let Satan get you down. What ever you guys are going through it most be difficult but keep the faith God will come through for the 3 of you.

    Love you both

    Your sis in Christ
    Ness@!!!

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