Song Playing: Moments from Morning – William C Koehler
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Aloha…
Everything is foggy, a forgotten mist over everything…
The night before last I dreamt of Inya.
It wasn’t the first time I have, but it was the most vivid.
It was extremely long, too. it felt like the whole night. I woke up once and got a drink, then fell right back into the dream.
As vivid as it was, though, I don’t remember exactly what is was about. We were in some sort of… factory. It looks like one of those giant places from the 1950’s that had been converted into apartments. It was nice.
She was with me; and… I’m not sure.
We were working together against something. I don’t know what. But we were together. I don’t know how do describe the feeling. It wasn’t like anything I’d felt from anyone before. It wasn’t simply physical closeness… though that was there. There was an underlying feeling to it as well. I would call it a partnership. A bond. I don’t know.
We’ve been writing each other almost every day, sometimes twice.
She hasn’t written to me yesterday or today, though.
I… don’t feel at a loss.
I’m not sure. I don’t feel like I’m lost, as I did when… when Caroline… when I wouldn’t hear from Caroline.
I’m worried about her, but I’m worried that she’s ok and not that she’s not writing me.
A security, I guess. I’m not afraid to lose this… I… trust that it will work out for the better somehow, no matter what happens.
I’ve never wanted a relationship to work out as much as I want this one to, but I’ve also never felt this much peace about it either.
Nothing has happened, and I know the empty e-mail box means nothing. I’ve got more than I expected anyhow. But it’s helped me to realize that I’m ok.
Today is my last day here. Tomorrow I get on the train and bid my parents farewell, and by 3 o’clock in the afternoon, I’ll be in Harrisburg. I’m excited. I’m like a little kid, I really can’t wait to see her.
I think I may go out and walk in the mist… sometimes it’s ok to not know…