Aloha!
I need sometime by myself.
Reverse, rewind, replay, recharge. That’s what I need.
And sleep. That too.
But just to be able to regain composure, I need to go off on my own and just be with God for a while, and let him talk to me.
This sickness has made me cranky, which is not like me. I don’t like it, and it needs to stop. I’ve been getting irritated about small things, and when big things come along, they really tick me off.
In Senior Seminar today there was a war with blacks against whites, suburban vs. country. And it was sickening. They were arguing about such stupid things, it wasn’t even funny. It just reminded me of home and didn’t go over well with me. There was a lot of other stuff, but I don’t really want to talk about it. I have a very bad short term memory, and by the time I reread this journal entry I’ll have forgotten all about it.
I did go off on two people I shouldn’t have, though and let out a lot of anger and frustration that I had no right in letting out on them. I need to recompose myself. I don’t stay angry for very long, but if I get caught and interrogated when I’m steamed, I’ll blast anything in my way. They badgered me, and I went off. Their intentions were good, but I should have walked out and went to be by myself for a while. That would have been the smart thing.
It didn’t get any better, though.
Pagoda was supposed to play a show tonight, but all the boys neglected to tell their keyboardist of where and when we were meeting. So I wasted an entire afternoon bumming around the house and waiting for their call. Which never came. I should have pulled a Mike Franchina and let them come find me. I felt disgusted.
We finally did all meet up, and we played at the Appalachian Brewing Company. We tore the place down. We weren’t sure if they would let me in at first, but after talking with the bouncer a bit (who we later guessed owned the place) we got in. We got up, did our thing, and got down. And we rocked the house.
Our website is almost complete. I’ll be showing it all to you when it’s finished.
I hope I get to go with Inya to the movies tomorrow night.